It’s actually pretty hard to write about something when you’re feeling so negative about that particular subject. I had a tough week last week between shin splints and then being hit with illness (again!) at the end of the week. Truth be told, I’m not feeling all that motivated to run and I’m actually pretty scared of failure right now.
No part of me wanted to run. I was still feeling pretty unwell but I decided I had to force myself. I’m not entirely sure if that was the correct decision or not – but I’m writing this now, so it can’t have been that bad! I got through 4 miles on my lunch break and after work attended my first Pilates class. I loved the class and despite not being able to breathe (without sounding like darth vader) I found that I wasn’t as terrible at it as I was at yoga. I really felt my core working hard throughout the class and I can tell already that regular practise is going to benefit me greatly.
Queue the breakdown. Have you all been reading my posts and waiting for this?! It happened after work. I threw a bit of a strop at not wanting to run and broke down in tears to Brandon, explaining to him that I had been hating running recently and had 0 motivation. He managed to calm me down and we went out for a little 2.4 mile jaunt. Not quite the 5 miles on my training plan but it was better than nothing.
I decided to take a rest day as my shins were still pretty sore. I was pretty anxious about this decision as I couldn’t tell if I was making excuses or if I was actually needing to rest. I went to a yoga class in the evening and I felt much better after leaving. I’d got a bit of a sweat on (it was warm yoga at 26 degrees) and my head was in a much better place. I also found I’d progressed from last week and I think my stretching may actually be working! This was the little bit of positive progression I’d needed…
The anxiety about excuses vs. actual need for rest for the better of me and I decided I should do the run I’d missed the previous day. It was meant to be 4 miles. I managed 2.45 miles on my lunch break before I decided I was being an idiot and should not be running through the pain in my shins. Brandon (my saviour) picked up two small bags of frozen peas on the way home from work and I spent the night icing my shins (and drowning my sorrows in HaloTop ice cream!)
Another rest day. I just need to keep it together in my head and stay sensible with my training. I know that right now I need to rest my legs or my shins are just going to worsen and I’ll be out for longer. No running. Lots of ice and compression is what’s on the cards for the next few days. Brandon and I had a relaxing evening at the Dominion cinema – a posh cinema in Edinburgh with reclining sofas! We went to see Den of Thieves. It was a great film (8/10) and lovely to spend an evening out, not worrying about an early morning run and pigging out on goodies!
We planned another date day. I have so much time for dates whilst I’m not running! If you live in Edinburgh and haven’t been to Bross Bagels in Portobello, STOP WHAT YOU’RE DOING RIGHT NOW AND GO! It’s a quirky little shop inspired by Montreal (the bagel capital of the world) and their bagels are to die for. Brandon and I both opted for ‘The Big Apple.’ Anything that involved pastrami, cheese and gherkins has my name written all over it! After the brunch of dreams, we did our weekly shop, finally managing to bag the PB cup and cinnamon roll HaloTop flavours! Result!! Then we visited family and headed home to chill out before my big day on Sunday.
Day 3 of no running. Except I’m still eating like I’m logging some serious miles. I was up at 6.30am to head to Stirling for my JogScotland Jog Leader course. I was so excited but nervous too. I didn’t know what to expect from the course but I needn’t have been nervous at all. Any doubts I had about being inexperienced were soon firmly squashed when I got into it and just immersed myself in the day and its tasks! It was absolutely fantastic and I genuinely feel like I’ve gained so much confidence and knowledge. I’m now looking forward to getting my running group up and running! (I love running puns!)
Overall, it’s been a pretty mixed week with both highs and lows. I’m delighted with the progress I’ve made in yoga, I tried pilates for the first time (and loved it) and I ended the week on a high with gaining my Jog Leader qualification. All of these things and the prospects they present, excite me. I don’t know where I’m going to be in my yoga practise in 6 months time, nor do I know where I’ll be with my running group (hopefully in the middle of nowhere on a great long run). As for the lack of running, I’m gutted but know I have to be sensible and think about the future rather than the short term.
I’m continuing with icing my shins, focusing on resting and stretching my muscles and I’ll just have to wait and see what next week brings.