I have learned a very valuable lesson about control since the beginning of this journey. It can be a very dangerous and at the same time, amazing thing. Around a year ago, I thought I was in control of everything. I decided how little I ate, how often I exercised and how many times a day I weighed myself. I had it all fully under control, right? WRONG. I was digging my own grave and I didn’t even realise it. I was losing weight, which at the time was the only thing that made me happy but I couldn’t see that in actual fact I was stuck in a cycle of misery: obsessed by food and totally out of control.
After I realised the pain I was causing myself and my loved ones, I decided I would beat this and claim back my happiness. I consciously made that decision and took all the steps necessary to get to where I am now. I’m not claiming it’s easy to turn things around when life gets tough but I now believe that it is possible for anyone.
I know a number of people who are unhappy with their weight/don’t feel confident in themselves but don’t take any steps towards making a change. It’s frustrating to watch and listen to them beat themselves up when I know they are the only ones who can help themselves. It is YOU who has to take control of any situation in your life. YOU can be happy if YOU do things to make yourself happy and eliminate what does not. I’m not trying to preach.. I just want people to understand that you can change anything you want to in your life! Don’t settle for anything less than complete and utter happiness.
Sunday’s are exceptionally reflective for me. I mostly spend my Sunday’s relaxing and getting ready for the week ahead. I like to look back on the past week and plan things for the week ahead; meals, workouts and social commitments.
I had a lovely day out with Brandon today. We went to The Whistle Stop Barber Shop in Edinburgh for a spot of lunch. We ended up sharing dishes, something we do quite a lot, which I love as it means I get to try lots of different things. On the menu was Haggis Pizza, Poutine and a Club Sandwich. Not quite the cleanest of lunches but I really treasure spending time with Brandon and if I overindulge in carbs, who cares really. Sunday’s are for treating yourself, right? My diet always bounces back to normal on a Monday. My food shop is also done and I have an exciting week of clean meals!
We got home from lunch pretty late and stuck a movie on to relax in the evening. It was a great film – The Drop. I fell asleep throughout parts of it (nothing new there) but it was the perfect mix of crime and a good deep story-line. I also prepped some Turkey Bolognese for the next couple of night’s dinners and now it’s off to pack my bag for tomorrow.